Sunday, January 31, 2010

Long week

Today has been a hard reality check for me. My husband is disabled and I now have him at home with a feeding tube and getting a hospital bed delivered tomorrow. We went to a procedure on Wed and ended up with surgery and now the feeding tube. He is a thin man anyway and he had gotten down to 109lbs in recent weeks. So We had to get into the Dr. and then got to a specialist then a surgeon. I am wore out and my body is screaming to slow down. It was a long night. We were up several times and then try and get comfortable again to go back to sleep. I hope he sleeps better tonight for his sake and for mine. Only rest will make the pain go away at this point. He has a positive attitude which is good so we try and make light of the problem. It brings tears to the eyes when your best friend is pleading with you to make the pain go away. Two incisions when you have no muscle tone and your are weak anyway is hard to fight back the fears and tears. Hopefully the feedings will make him stronger and he can have some quality of life for the remainder of his time. Chris

1 comment:

Michele Bilyeu said...

This is my very first visit to your blog, and my heart is breaking for you. You are facing a lot of very hard challenges. I just need you to know that you can do this, because he is your best friend, and he is counting on you to be there for him. You need to also be there for you. You are so filled up with loss and sadness and fear and pain and I know just how all of those feel. Please know that my heart hears you, feels you, and understands this place you are in now. I am sending my blessings, prayers, and energies your way. Please hang in there and keep in touch.