Ever felt like things were out of control. Well I am at that point. This quilt should have been done by now and here I am still working on it and no where near done. Funny how life and foolishness get in the way. Always and excuse. Graduation is coming real fast and I just don't know how I will get everything done that needs to be. I was up at 3am to work on this today.
I walk into my sewing room and this is the first glimpse of what I see. Total mess, but it gets worse.
This table was clear about 4 weeks ago. How can a person get so out of control with their work area. I will have to work for days to uncover all the surfaces and try and make some order out of the chaos.So many things have spiraled out of control and I need to get things in order soon. Like yesterday. My son has gotten in my face about being accountable and I guess I have used everything to make myself not answer to my own issues. Time to step and be a human being again.
As a caregiver you forget you have necessary feelings that need dealing with let alone your own physical health and well being. I have always put others above me and figured I could survive. Please, Please don't ever do that to yourself. Be true to who you are, but put yourself near the top to pay attention to life and it's ups and downs. I am paying the price of being lacks in protecting me from me. Chris ps I guess this is a new start if I can admit I did this to myself.